Hahaha, gotta save something random..

With my last breathe, I'd like you to know:
You were always the best, even though it didn't show.
Now let me rest with all the other broken hearts. ♡

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I like it~~

I keep forgetting myself...

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Maybe.. I'm starting to head back to my old self.

It's strange, but not so bad.

It may be from what happened this year.. Because I know that I'm ignoring the matter and pretending it was nothing.

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I was hoping we could get by without having to bring up the topic.. but the day after Christmas, my father got roaring drunk.

It wasn't pleasant.

I miss him... But when I think about him, I can barely remember his face as I last saw it..

He was the one that wanted to live more and I'm the one that wanted to already be dead...

He died.. Gotta love a twist.

It's... annoying.

I don't mean to say I don't love anyone here.. it's just.

I don't care about this world much.

Plain and simple.

And it's been buzzing around more.

All the old times..

Why do I regret the past?

Sometimes.. I think I was sent here to help people but also end up hurting them..

It's weird, but it's all that makes sense to me.

I try to be happy and fight all the negativity, but sometimes it's hard.

Hopefully it'll go away and not continue..

Argh..

I want an answer..

Are we real because we believe we are or merely because of the flesh bags we adorn as ourselves?

And if we believe we're real... then maybe there is no one else.

Except people of our imaginations placed to push ourselves?

Sorry if that doesn't make sense.. It's much easier to phrase when I first think of it.

That kind of stuff is floating around my brain lately.. which is why I believe I am partly going back to my old self.

But I really do love the people here!

Ciao~♥